Since a few days life give me only pain.Pain which fill every second..every part of my life...

 

First,this physical....Bit by bit...hit my body.I cant sleep..i cant do anything.Every move is like climbing on a big mountain...Gripe every part my body...Dart..burn...I know..only few days and will be better...I am dreamining about a one second without this pain..just one second...

 

Second,this psychical...this is much terrible..when i feel that i am lonely with my pain.Strange..but when i try to talk with someone what happend to me last days..or about my physical pain...all my friends staying calm..are hiding...dont want to talk.I know that this what happened to me..this is something knew for them...But i dont expect anything..why they are scared?I dont need a money...i dont need a help..I need only feel that they understand me.Only this..I know..i was always happy...i hade always smile for all...I smile now too..with thears on my eyes...I am happy too..because i am a live...

But now i see...what a friends i have..only for a good days...and for this bad..i am lonely..just lonely...I am asking myself...I was dreaming last years?I was only dreaming,that i have a friends?Why awakening is so paintful?...