Since 4 years this day is very special for me.Very sad,very hard...This day i live on memory.Just this day...Day when have touching dead....
Are u feel sometimes,that u have live before...that u have love someome in other life?
And when u fund him on this life..u just feel that..u are happy more then never..........
I was in love....I loved someone using every part of my body,every part of my hear,every part,of my soul,every part of my mind...It was love about ohers can only dreams..about a poets can write amazing poems...Pure love...
And one day,something happened...I cant forget this words:"My love i have a cancer..i dont know how long i will be live...please leave me now..dont look of my dying.."
My world collapse in one second.My love dying!I wanted scream :"Nooooooooooo,nooooooo...not now..we are so happy!Why?!....
Cancer was fighting with us all long year...sometimes giving hope...and taking it next day...
I have belive..we have belive..How many nights i was crying lonely?How many nights i was beging a God?Nights without a sleep...And hope...
How many morning i was running with a beating heart to see still living face.Face full of love and pain.One touch hes weak hand,unvisible smile and this eyes talking me "i love u"..........
My heart was crying and happy the same time...
Till this day..Night before i was sitting beside hih bed and looking trough a window...suddenly i saw a shadow....
In one second i felt unpleasant cold touching me...I knew it..Something must happened.
Our eyes saw rissing sun...we have knew...this is the end...
I have take his hand...and looking on his eyes i have hear last time "i love u..be happy".I saw his last breath..and a little smile saying me "i am free now..i dont feel a pain"...This second my heart broke.
Next two years i was trying just servive...I dont wanted leave darkness.Two long years..
Only my friends are staying near me.They are teaching me a new life..they have giving me smile and hope...They have bringing me to the life.
Now..i am stronger..i live with hope for a happines...But this one day..this day i reatreat to the past...This one day feel my pain again..Only this one day when dead touched my heart.
Just one day.
